Where do I begin? The truth is after my last post, I fell off the band wagon real quick! My husband did end up losing about 15-20 lbs, but guys tend to lose weight fairly quickly when they change their diets like that with little effort. Not true for women, at least this woman. It takes a lot of effort on my part and I've failed to put forth much of it recently. For the longest time I somehow maintained my weight that I had lost...all through summer and even Christmas. It appears that just lately I have been putting the pounds back on. And I know exactly how it happened...lack of self control and discipline. PERIOD!
I am very disappointed in myself. I know better yet I allowed it to happen giving one excuse after another. I have an addiction to food and that is all there is to it. I eat when I'm happy, I eat it when I'm sad, scared, nervous, anxious, etc. etc. Instead of using it as it's meant to be used (energy for my body) I use it for comfort. Big mistake...HUGE...and it shows, literally.
Now, I'm not saying that I've gained 100's of pounds or anything, but when I stepped on the scale yesterday it showed that I have gained about 10 lbs back. To me, that is a lot. I see it and I feel it....and I hate it! So, I am here to admit my failure so that I can take that next step to recovery. Yes, in my opinion, it is recovery from a terrible habit/addiction.
Yesterday was day one...and it was HARD! I wanted to eat everything in sight. It was cold and blistery out and all I wanted to do was bake some cookies. Mmmmmm, fresh, warm out of the oven, cookies. Excuse me now while I wipe the drool of my computer. See the problem I have? But, I prevailed and made it through day one. Today is day two. Still going strong. And I am also excersizing which I know is a major tool in my wieght loss. I have decided that I just have to make it a priority in my day. No more excuses for not enough time. There is time and I will use it wisely!
I am writing here because I know that I have to keep myself accountable in some way. I have to write down my ups and downs and track my progress in order to stick with it. I see things spiraling out of control quickly and I don't want to end up right back where I started...and this time I wouldn't even have "baby weight" to use as an excuse!
So here is to a healthy new beginning and no more excuses!!
