Im holding steady at about 158.4-158.6....
I didn't work out yesterday. Kids didn't have school and I didn't have to babysit so I slept in. Which, really put my whole day, and mood, off kilter. I just didn't feel like working out, but then I felt guilty about it all day. And worse than that...I made these delicious "energy bites" that I just couldn't resist. They were about 90 cals each for a 1" ball...and I had about 5-7 of them...OUCH!!! But it was ALL I could think about yesterday so I just decided to finish them up so they wouldn't exist anymore. I did share them with the family though so I at least wouldn't eat all of them lol! I wont be making them again for awhile...and I will try to bring down the calorie count when I do make them.
Anyway...I doubled up my workout today. 20 minutes on treadmill and 20 minutes with Bikini Mommy. So, hopefully I will see the scale move down tomorrow. I want to see 157!!!
Im not really seeing a huge change in my figure yet, although according to the tape measure I am changing a little bit. I am just so impatient and want to see that bikini body like, YESTERDAY! LOL!
I just keep trying to remind myself that Im only in my 4th week...and ive already lost almost 9lbs. Seriously, that's an average of 2lbs/week so I really cant complain! Plus I am eating way better!
I even went to the grocery store yesterday and resisted many, many,....MANY temptations! I was very proud of myself...until I came home and pigged out on the energy bites...but at least they had healthy ingredients in them (besides the white choc chips ha!)
Today is much better. I already have my entire day of meals/snacks planned out so I know exactly what I can have and how many cals I am taking in. I feel good about that :)
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Monday, January 27, 2014
Day 22/90
Well, after a weekend of eating some unhealthy items, I am happy to report that I'm only up 0.4 lbs! Really, that's not bad at all.
Saturday we went to a spaghetti dinner benefit for a friend and of course I had spaghetti (with regular white pasta, gasp!) a white roll, regular salad dressing and....cheesecake and crumb cake! In my defense, I didn't eat huge portions of anything. Andy I shared the deserts. Oh, then I had popcorn and wine that night during our movie.
Yesterday, Andy and I went shopping after breakfast. About half way through my stomach started hurting because I was so hungry. I tried to stay strong and not get food, but I couldn't hold out any longer. We ended up going through Mcd's drive through. We ordered a 10 pc nugget meal with large fries...but again, we split it. It was enough to curb my hunger and I didn't feel too guilty.
So with all that, only being up a quarter pound is really no big deal. I'm not down any more than my lowest weight, but I don't have a ton to re-lose either!
In other news, the lady that I am following for my fitness program ( https://www.facebook.com/BikiniBodyMommy) posted a photo of herself Friday and she is looking GOOD! A lot of people were upset by it because she looks way different than she does in the workout videos. But...she is recording these a few weeks in advance. She's actually 22 days ahead of us. Which, has me very excited to think that I could possibly look that good in just another 22 days! That's just a few days over my first goal period (2/14)
Here's her picture:
Now, keep in mind, camera angle can really enhance a figure, such as it did here. She ended up posting a video explaining why she looked like this now. And she doesn't look quite this skinny when you see her straight on, but she definitely still looks great! She has ab definition and smaller thighs and more muscular arms than she did in her first video. I hope that I'm doing her workouts correctly because I want to look like this too!! I'm not following her eating plan, but I feel like I'm doing a pretty good job of making healthy choices. I'm getting lots of lean protein and some complex carbs. I've turned away from the white breads, pasta and crackers. None of those. In fact, I rarely eat bread but if I do its the whole grain. I've been eating sweet potatoes, and brown rice. Lots of water too! I practically live in the bathroom.
Ok...here's to week 4 being successful! I hope to lose another 2lbs by the end of the week!
Saturday we went to a spaghetti dinner benefit for a friend and of course I had spaghetti (with regular white pasta, gasp!) a white roll, regular salad dressing and....cheesecake and crumb cake! In my defense, I didn't eat huge portions of anything. Andy I shared the deserts. Oh, then I had popcorn and wine that night during our movie.
Yesterday, Andy and I went shopping after breakfast. About half way through my stomach started hurting because I was so hungry. I tried to stay strong and not get food, but I couldn't hold out any longer. We ended up going through Mcd's drive through. We ordered a 10 pc nugget meal with large fries...but again, we split it. It was enough to curb my hunger and I didn't feel too guilty.
So with all that, only being up a quarter pound is really no big deal. I'm not down any more than my lowest weight, but I don't have a ton to re-lose either!
In other news, the lady that I am following for my fitness program ( https://www.facebook.com/BikiniBodyMommy) posted a photo of herself Friday and she is looking GOOD! A lot of people were upset by it because she looks way different than she does in the workout videos. But...she is recording these a few weeks in advance. She's actually 22 days ahead of us. Which, has me very excited to think that I could possibly look that good in just another 22 days! That's just a few days over my first goal period (2/14)
Here's her picture:
Ok...here's to week 4 being successful! I hope to lose another 2lbs by the end of the week!
Friday, January 24, 2014
19/90
WooWho!!!! The scale is finally moving in the right direction! I am down to 158 this morning after being stuck at 160 something since the end of week one. I had gotten down to 159 but then it went back up for what seemed like for-ev-er!
I even ate a chocolate chip cookie and a piece of pepperoni pizza yesterday lol! I was still under my 1200 calorie goal by the end of the day though. I think I really need to get at least that 1200 calories, but im finding it hard. It seems that im really careful how much I consume during the day just in case I have a larger dinner. But, then when it comes to dinner/evening time, I feel like I should take it easy because I don't want to eat a bunch of calories right before bed. And, honestly, when I do eat, I feel full. Ive been eating about every 2 hours so im not really feeling that starving feeling that I used to. Im also drinking lots of water, most days. I can tell a difference when I don't!
I started Andy on a diet this week too. He doesn't feel good about himself either. Id love to see him lose weight. I love him as he is, as he loves me the way I am. But, we can both admit we like to see each other thinner and in better shape....nothing wrong with that, right?!
So, I am feeling much better now that Im seeing the scale move down. I know I have a long road ahead of me and I just need to hang in there! I will reach my goals!
BTW...my FIRST goal is to get to 155 by Valentines Day. That is 3 weeks from today. I think (hope) I can do it!! I just need to lose 1lb/ week. I know its easier said than done ;)
One last thing...I saw this little saying of facebook today...I thought it was very fitting for how Im feeling!
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I even ate a chocolate chip cookie and a piece of pepperoni pizza yesterday lol! I was still under my 1200 calorie goal by the end of the day though. I think I really need to get at least that 1200 calories, but im finding it hard. It seems that im really careful how much I consume during the day just in case I have a larger dinner. But, then when it comes to dinner/evening time, I feel like I should take it easy because I don't want to eat a bunch of calories right before bed. And, honestly, when I do eat, I feel full. Ive been eating about every 2 hours so im not really feeling that starving feeling that I used to. Im also drinking lots of water, most days. I can tell a difference when I don't!
I started Andy on a diet this week too. He doesn't feel good about himself either. Id love to see him lose weight. I love him as he is, as he loves me the way I am. But, we can both admit we like to see each other thinner and in better shape....nothing wrong with that, right?!
So, I am feeling much better now that Im seeing the scale move down. I know I have a long road ahead of me and I just need to hang in there! I will reach my goals!
BTW...my FIRST goal is to get to 155 by Valentines Day. That is 3 weeks from today. I think (hope) I can do it!! I just need to lose 1lb/ week. I know its easier said than done ;)
One last thing...I saw this little saying of facebook today...I thought it was very fitting for how Im feeling!
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Day 16/90
Not much to report today. I did my workout yesterday and today was cardio day. Ive been doing the 45 minute walk on the treadmill on cardio days but today I did a more intense 20 minute workout on the treadmill. Intervals of one minute walking at 3.2 mph and then one minute running at 5.2 mph. It was definitely a workout! My heart was racing.
This week Im still eating many foods off the cleanse menu. I made up a bunch of meals for Andy to take for his lunches. Id like to see him lose weight too, and so would he. But he's not going to if I don't push him into it.
Still not sleeping well. Well, I did sleep pretty good when I was taking melatonin and a sleeping pill, but then I felt so groggy during the day. It dawned on me yesterday that that combination was probably why. Last night I only took the melatonin and didn't sleep for crap. UGH! Hopefully someday ill get it figured out!
This week Im still eating many foods off the cleanse menu. I made up a bunch of meals for Andy to take for his lunches. Id like to see him lose weight too, and so would he. But he's not going to if I don't push him into it.
Still not sleeping well. Well, I did sleep pretty good when I was taking melatonin and a sleeping pill, but then I felt so groggy during the day. It dawned on me yesterday that that combination was probably why. Last night I only took the melatonin and didn't sleep for crap. UGH! Hopefully someday ill get it figured out!
Monday, January 20, 2014
Day 15
Well, yesterday was the last day of the 14 day cleanse. Honestly, im very disappointed in my final results. Week one was great! Down 6 lbs and 4 total inches. But week two, there was no change. I didn't stick with the meal plan as closely as I did the first week, but I was still within my calorie range for the most part and I exercised everyday as well. I was just hoping to at least lose 10 lbs. I got down to 159.2 yesterday but this morning I was back up to 160.2.
Im not giving up though. Im going to keep going. Today is day of 15 of the 90 day bikini body mommy challenge. I know that if I keep at it, make healthy choices and continue working out, I WILL see the changes that I want to see.
It takes 4 weeks for you to see change
It takes 8 weeks for family and friends to see change and
It takes 12 weeks for everyone else to see change.
So they say....
I know that I am headed in the right direction, but its still a big slap in the face to not see any change after a week. So, I wont be posting any photo today. My measurements are the same as well, so there's really no point.
Andy wants to get on board with this too so now I have to work on helping him with that. Maybe that will help me stay on track. I kind of let him tell me its ok to have that candy bar (which I had Saturday night, oops) And maybe if he's doing this too, we can help each other be accountable...maybe lol!
Here is to another week of making good choices and becoming a happier, healthier ME!
Im not giving up though. Im going to keep going. Today is day of 15 of the 90 day bikini body mommy challenge. I know that if I keep at it, make healthy choices and continue working out, I WILL see the changes that I want to see.
It takes 4 weeks for you to see change
It takes 8 weeks for family and friends to see change and
It takes 12 weeks for everyone else to see change.
So they say....
I know that I am headed in the right direction, but its still a big slap in the face to not see any change after a week. So, I wont be posting any photo today. My measurements are the same as well, so there's really no point.
Andy wants to get on board with this too so now I have to work on helping him with that. Maybe that will help me stay on track. I kind of let him tell me its ok to have that candy bar (which I had Saturday night, oops) And maybe if he's doing this too, we can help each other be accountable...maybe lol!
Here is to another week of making good choices and becoming a happier, healthier ME!
Friday, January 17, 2014
Day11/14
Well, im down one full pound from Monday...seems like a lot of effort for such a little loss. Im still holding out hope that its due to my period and working out. I have 3 more lbs to go to reach my goal that I had set for this 2week cleanse. Not very confident that it will happen by Monday.
Ive been doing great keeping up with my workouts, following bikinibody mommy. We did our second Fit Test today and there was a definite improvement from the first time, which means I am getting stronger! YAY me!! On days that we don't do intense workouts, we do 45 minutes of cardio. Ive been walking on the treadmill. Not up to running just yet, since we are going for a length of time rather than intensity. Ill get there though! I hope that I can run for 45 minutes!! That will totally put me in a 5K no problem!!
Im also doing pretty well with my eating. Im getting about 1100-1300 cals/day. Maybe that's not enough and that's why the weight isn't coming off. But to tell you the truth, Im not feeling as hungry now as I was the first few days. And im afraid if I take in more cals it will be junk...cause that's what I really want lol!
Im looking forward to incorporating some recipes this next week. This menu is getting a little stale!
I still want to try to keep the carbs to a minimum. Ill still probably try to eat the sweet potatoes because they are just plain old healthy! And, I just love them ;)
So...anyway, things are going ok. I really wish the weight would continue to melt off like it did last week, but I just need to learn to be patient. I KNOW that if I continue to workout and make good food choices, the weight will disappear...I just wanted it gone, like YESTERDAY! HA!
Ive been doing great keeping up with my workouts, following bikinibody mommy. We did our second Fit Test today and there was a definite improvement from the first time, which means I am getting stronger! YAY me!! On days that we don't do intense workouts, we do 45 minutes of cardio. Ive been walking on the treadmill. Not up to running just yet, since we are going for a length of time rather than intensity. Ill get there though! I hope that I can run for 45 minutes!! That will totally put me in a 5K no problem!!
Im also doing pretty well with my eating. Im getting about 1100-1300 cals/day. Maybe that's not enough and that's why the weight isn't coming off. But to tell you the truth, Im not feeling as hungry now as I was the first few days. And im afraid if I take in more cals it will be junk...cause that's what I really want lol!
Im looking forward to incorporating some recipes this next week. This menu is getting a little stale!
I still want to try to keep the carbs to a minimum. Ill still probably try to eat the sweet potatoes because they are just plain old healthy! And, I just love them ;)
So...anyway, things are going ok. I really wish the weight would continue to melt off like it did last week, but I just need to learn to be patient. I KNOW that if I continue to workout and make good food choices, the weight will disappear...I just wanted it gone, like YESTERDAY! HA!
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Day 9/14
Ugh...another day, no loss! I am not sure what's going on. Maybe it has something to do with my exercise, gaining muscle. Or maybe because Aunt Flo is here for a visit. Or both??? Either way, its very frustrating! Im holding on though....
Im also getting sick of my food. Its the same thing everyday, day after day. Which in a way is good, because I don't have to think about it, but at the same time, it makes me not want to eat, which will then lead me to over eating. UGH...vicious cycle!!
Only 5 more days...then I can add in some different stuff.
Im also getting sick of my food. Its the same thing everyday, day after day. Which in a way is good, because I don't have to think about it, but at the same time, it makes me not want to eat, which will then lead me to over eating. UGH...vicious cycle!!
Only 5 more days...then I can add in some different stuff.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Day 8:14
I wasn't able to post yesterday because our internet was out....
Last I wrote, I was nervous about going out Saturday night. Well, I ate a little more than I planned, and drank way more than I planned, but I was only up 1pound the next day. And then I was down 2 yesterday. So, not as horrible as I thought it was going to be.
For the first week, I lost a total of 6 lbs., 3 inches of my waist and 1 inch of my hips!! Not the 10 I wanted to lose but in reality that is a fantastic loss!! So, ill take it!
Here is the start of week two....
compared to week one...
I cant wait to see my Bikini Ready Body :)
I did not have a loss this morning...Aunt Flo is visiting though so that honestly could have something to do with. Either that, or including, that I worked out hard and my muscles are sore, and I didn't eat enough calories yesterday.
Im doing pretty well with the plan. Getting a little bored with the same foods over and over. But at the same time its nice that I don't really have to think about it or make choices.
Today is cardio day for my workout. My schedule got all messed up this morning due to work, so I haven't done it yet, but I will this afternoon. 45 minutes on the treadmill :)
Last I wrote, I was nervous about going out Saturday night. Well, I ate a little more than I planned, and drank way more than I planned, but I was only up 1pound the next day. And then I was down 2 yesterday. So, not as horrible as I thought it was going to be.
For the first week, I lost a total of 6 lbs., 3 inches of my waist and 1 inch of my hips!! Not the 10 I wanted to lose but in reality that is a fantastic loss!! So, ill take it!
Here is the start of week two....
I did not have a loss this morning...Aunt Flo is visiting though so that honestly could have something to do with. Either that, or including, that I worked out hard and my muscles are sore, and I didn't eat enough calories yesterday.
Im doing pretty well with the plan. Getting a little bored with the same foods over and over. But at the same time its nice that I don't really have to think about it or make choices.
Today is cardio day for my workout. My schedule got all messed up this morning due to work, so I haven't done it yet, but I will this afternoon. 45 minutes on the treadmill :)
Saturday, January 11, 2014
Day 6:14
I got on the scale this morning and was down another 0.8lbs. Its not a significant loss for two days but the good news is, I am down 3 inches around my waist!! That is crazy! I think I was just retaining A LOT of water and I was very constipated (TMI I know...) My face even looks slimmer already and Andy mentioned it to me last night.
Today was cardio day with Bikini Mommy so I did 45 minutes on the treadmill. I didn't run any of it because I was going for such a long time I didn't want to wear myself out to quickly. My legs are very sore from the last few days of working out. The exercises themselves aren't that big of a deal, but put them together and repeat them three times and its brutal...for now! But I know it will all be worth it!!
Today is Saturday. We are having friends over tonight for pizza and beer. Im looking forward to hanging out, but im a little worried about the aftermath. I know that I will end up having pizza, but I will try not to go hog wild. One slice and call it good. I also plan on not drinking a bunch. I just don't want to mess everything up that I worked so hard for this week. But at the same time Im afraid that if I don't allow myself at least a little breathing room Im going to mess up worse.
The rest of the weekend should be fine. Andys gone all day today so I can eat my planned out meals, and I don't think we are going anywhere tomorrow so I should be able to eat my planned meals for that too. I may try a new pancake recipe I found tomorrow morning...its just eggs and bananas. That cant be bad :) And I got sugar free syrup.
So...im feeling pretty good about the progress ive made so far. I really wanted to lose 10 lbs this first week which wont happen, but that's ok. I am seeing changes in my body already and that's a good thing. It really isn't all about the number on the scale anyway:)
Today was cardio day with Bikini Mommy so I did 45 minutes on the treadmill. I didn't run any of it because I was going for such a long time I didn't want to wear myself out to quickly. My legs are very sore from the last few days of working out. The exercises themselves aren't that big of a deal, but put them together and repeat them three times and its brutal...for now! But I know it will all be worth it!!
Today is Saturday. We are having friends over tonight for pizza and beer. Im looking forward to hanging out, but im a little worried about the aftermath. I know that I will end up having pizza, but I will try not to go hog wild. One slice and call it good. I also plan on not drinking a bunch. I just don't want to mess everything up that I worked so hard for this week. But at the same time Im afraid that if I don't allow myself at least a little breathing room Im going to mess up worse.
The rest of the weekend should be fine. Andys gone all day today so I can eat my planned out meals, and I don't think we are going anywhere tomorrow so I should be able to eat my planned meals for that too. I may try a new pancake recipe I found tomorrow morning...its just eggs and bananas. That cant be bad :) And I got sugar free syrup.
So...im feeling pretty good about the progress ive made so far. I really wanted to lose 10 lbs this first week which wont happen, but that's ok. I am seeing changes in my body already and that's a good thing. It really isn't all about the number on the scale anyway:)
Friday, January 10, 2014
Day 5:14
No weight loss this morning. I admit I am a bit bummed about it, but I am trying to be realistic about it too. I have been working out with Bikini Mommy and my muscles are very sore, which tells me that I am probably retaining some water and hopefully gaining muscle. Of course muscle is heavier than fat. The good news, I haven't gained!! So, it really is a win!!
Plus I had some popcorn last night....
The weekend is coming up and I'm getting kind of nervous about it. Everyone will be around. My schedule will be messed up. We are possibly going out Saturday night with friends. So...I am going to try my best to stick with the plan as much as possible. But I also realize that I have to live. I cant stay cooped up in my little safe place and never venture out for the sake of being "skinny" I will get there no matter what!! But life will through me curves and I have to learn to go with the flow. I will try my best to be prepared.
I also haven't been sleeping well. I slept really good a few nights ago (not great, but good compared to recently) Then, even last night when I took a sleeping pill, I didn't sleep that great. I went to sleep pretty quickly about 10pm but was awake and restless after 1 or so. I just don't understand whats going on with me. Its frustrating. Hopefully my body will regulate its self out soon. I NEED sleep!!!
Plus I had some popcorn last night....
The weekend is coming up and I'm getting kind of nervous about it. Everyone will be around. My schedule will be messed up. We are possibly going out Saturday night with friends. So...I am going to try my best to stick with the plan as much as possible. But I also realize that I have to live. I cant stay cooped up in my little safe place and never venture out for the sake of being "skinny" I will get there no matter what!! But life will through me curves and I have to learn to go with the flow. I will try my best to be prepared.
I also haven't been sleeping well. I slept really good a few nights ago (not great, but good compared to recently) Then, even last night when I took a sleeping pill, I didn't sleep that great. I went to sleep pretty quickly about 10pm but was awake and restless after 1 or so. I just don't understand whats going on with me. Its frustrating. Hopefully my body will regulate its self out soon. I NEED sleep!!!
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Day 4:14
I really do need to apologize to my body for the way ive treated it over the last 6 months (or more!) I have not been treating it the way that I should and I am now paying the price for it. But I really am committed to making up for that! By the end of this year I will be a whole new me, the me I want to be, the me that I will continue to be...FOREVER!
With that said, I'm down another 1.2 lbs. today!!! And 1 in off my waist! Of course Id like to see a bigger loss than that, but it really is pretty good so ill take it! 4.4 lbs. in 3 days is great!
I have been pretty good about sticking to the meal plan. It was kind of hard at dinner last night because I made chili for the family and it looked and smelled really good...especially since its so cold and nasty out! Plus Andy pulled out the peanut butter and crackers. I did have two with a smidge of peanut butter. But again, it was way better than what I normally would've had. I cant deprive myself completely or I am just setting myself up for a binge. And binge=fail!
I did my first workout with Bikini Mommy today. It was only about a 15 minute workout but I'm feeling it! I am actually looking forward to working out now! I didn't have time to get on treadmill this morning though, so I will do that this afternoon.
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Getting There
Day 3/14 :: So far, so good. I did have a few crackers with some cream cheese jalapeno dip yesterday when Andy was snacking, but just a few (4). Andy also made me make him popcorn last night and I had a hand full of that. Not too bad though considering I would have normally filled myself up on both of those things. Other than that, I stuck to the plan and ate very well. After two days, I am already down 3.2 lbs! I'm sure that's all water weight, but Ill take it!! I'm really hoping that I can lose about 1.5lbs/day this first week. That would get me down 10.5lbs which would really keep me motivated to keep going!! Of course, as long as there is a loss each day during this 14 day cleanse I will be a happy girl!
I am really craving some treats...something not good for me. Its so cold out right now I just want to bake some yummy cookies or something. But, I also don't want to see the scale not move so that is my motivation to resist. I know that I need to detox my body (and mind) from wanting that junk.
Right now, my mind is constantly thinking about my next meal or snack. I need to find something to keep myself busy so I'm not doing that. It makes me hungry when I am probably really not hungry.
On a positive note...my sleeping is getting better and better! I have had some very long, unrestful nights lately. I have been dreaming ALL NIGHT LONG, so that means that I'm not getting any good deep sleep that my body needs. Which also probably explains some of the weight gain. I hoping that as I exercise more and eat better my body will be able to shut off at night and get the sleep it needs, that I need. I feel so exhausted all the time.
Well, here's to another successful day!!!
***********************UPDATE******************
So as I was cruising around Facebook today as I usually do, I came across this page of a mom who lost 100 lbs. a few years ago after having her third baby. Fast forward a few years, she has put some weight back on after the loss of her fourth. Her photo (below) really caught my eye and I decided to look into it a little bit more. Come to find out she is hosting a 90 day-challenge...FOR FREE!!! Every day she posts a work out video...did I mention it was FREE?!? On top of that, she works out right along with us (me). She's a real mom, with real weight to lose. She's not a picture of perfection (yet). She got winded just showing what exercises we would be doing. I have never in my life seen such a great work out video! She even went on to explain that in three weeks the scale never moved for her, so she knows and understands the frustrations we will face! Oh, and its FREE!!! Haha! I'm just super excited to start this and cant wait to see what results I come up with! I'm excited that its free too because most things like this cost a but load of $$$ that I just don't have. And since its such a "real life" video it makes it even more fantastic!! Here is her before and after pic from the first time she lost weight (just before she started this website) http://bikinibodymommy.com/
This could totally be me!!! I am so excited!! I know I can do this!!!
I did the Fit test today (8 workouts for 50 seconds each to see how many you can do in that time) Its just to show where you started and then you do it again to see how far you've come.
She also makes up meal plans, recipes and grocery list for each week, since exercising is only about 20% of actually losing weight. THat of course does cost $9.99/month but honestly that's not bad at all! $2.50/week...it's like 15 minutes worth of work at minimum wage lol...id spend WAY more time than that trying to figure out what I wanted/needed for good healthy meals. I am going to try it for the meal planning for a few weeks to see if I like what kind of stuff she comes up with.
Anyway...I just had to share because I am super duper excited!! I am so gonna rock that "Bikini-Momma Body"!!!!
I am really craving some treats...something not good for me. Its so cold out right now I just want to bake some yummy cookies or something. But, I also don't want to see the scale not move so that is my motivation to resist. I know that I need to detox my body (and mind) from wanting that junk.
Right now, my mind is constantly thinking about my next meal or snack. I need to find something to keep myself busy so I'm not doing that. It makes me hungry when I am probably really not hungry.
On a positive note...my sleeping is getting better and better! I have had some very long, unrestful nights lately. I have been dreaming ALL NIGHT LONG, so that means that I'm not getting any good deep sleep that my body needs. Which also probably explains some of the weight gain. I hoping that as I exercise more and eat better my body will be able to shut off at night and get the sleep it needs, that I need. I feel so exhausted all the time.
Well, here's to another successful day!!!
***********************UPDATE******************
So as I was cruising around Facebook today as I usually do, I came across this page of a mom who lost 100 lbs. a few years ago after having her third baby. Fast forward a few years, she has put some weight back on after the loss of her fourth. Her photo (below) really caught my eye and I decided to look into it a little bit more. Come to find out she is hosting a 90 day-challenge...FOR FREE!!! Every day she posts a work out video...did I mention it was FREE?!? On top of that, she works out right along with us (me). She's a real mom, with real weight to lose. She's not a picture of perfection (yet). She got winded just showing what exercises we would be doing. I have never in my life seen such a great work out video! She even went on to explain that in three weeks the scale never moved for her, so she knows and understands the frustrations we will face! Oh, and its FREE!!! Haha! I'm just super excited to start this and cant wait to see what results I come up with! I'm excited that its free too because most things like this cost a but load of $$$ that I just don't have. And since its such a "real life" video it makes it even more fantastic!! Here is her before and after pic from the first time she lost weight (just before she started this website) http://bikinibodymommy.com/
I did the Fit test today (8 workouts for 50 seconds each to see how many you can do in that time) Its just to show where you started and then you do it again to see how far you've come.
She also makes up meal plans, recipes and grocery list for each week, since exercising is only about 20% of actually losing weight. THat of course does cost $9.99/month but honestly that's not bad at all! $2.50/week...it's like 15 minutes worth of work at minimum wage lol...id spend WAY more time than that trying to figure out what I wanted/needed for good healthy meals. I am going to try it for the meal planning for a few weeks to see if I like what kind of stuff she comes up with.
Anyway...I just had to share because I am super duper excited!! I am so gonna rock that "Bikini-Momma Body"!!!!
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Getting Back to the Me I Want to Be!
I'm baaaaaccckkk!!!! I am starting a new journey to health and fitness and I decided that one way to keep myself accountable, and to be able to see my progress, was to continue with this blog. It really does help me to share my thoughts and feelings, my successes and failures. Im sure there will be ups and downs and I will struggle at times, but I have every confidence that this will be it. This will be my final journey back to being a happier and healthier me. Once I get there, I plan on staying there for the rest of my life. Im tired of this yo-yo dieting. And im tired of loving myself for awhile but hating myself for longer. So, here goes....
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Day 2: I have been so horrible to my body these last few months, and I am now living with the aftermath of my terrible choices. Part of it was stress eating, part of it was the holidays (which adds to the stress eating) Part of it was spreading myself out in too many directions. And a lot of it was just not caring anymore. But whatever it was, those are just all excuses that Ive used and its time to stop. This is not the me that I want to be. This is not the body I want to live in. I know it can be so much better...I've seen it! I know that I can feel so much better, both physically and emotionally. When I was at my lowest weight and the best physical shape of my life I felt like I was living on top of the world! I loved feeling that way because I never knew it was possible. But now I do, so there is no reason that I cant get there again. Im the only one stopping me....
Ive struggled over the last year as I slowly let myself go. I stopped running and exercising. I stopped making good food choices. I told myself a little bit wouldn't hurt, but then a little bit became a lot. And the more weight I put back on, the harder it became to have the energy to exercise. And the less I exercised the more I ate. Going out for lunch became a regular weekly (even bi-weekly) habit as well as candy bars or ice cream while being a couch potato in the evenings. My life had become so stressful that I was comforting myself with food and laziness.
That all ends now!! Yesterday I started a 14 day cleanse. Its not the crazy no food, nasty drink concoctions cleanse that most people think of though. I am eating real food. Real healthy food. Real healthy and satisfying food! I was a little nervous about it going in. I am addicted to sugar and sweets. I love comfort food. These foods are none of those. But these foods are foods that my body needs. I don't need a snickers bar, or chocolates, but I do need foods that will nourish my body, not bog it down. In just one day, I can already feel the difference. Its amazing. and it gives me hope for the next 13 days...and beyond!
I am really going to do this! This time is for real...and FOREVER! I never want to go back down this road, where I am watching myself slowly turn back into the person that I do not like. Being that person affects me in so many more ways than just my weight. It effects my relationships with my family and others. If I cant love myself, how can I let others love me?
And its not that I have to be "skinny" to be loved, but I need to feel healthy and confident about myself. That is who I want to be. And this is the first step! I am looking forward to this journey and where it will take me!
I took the following pictures of myself today...gag!! But, I need to be reminded where I started, and where I do not want to be or ever go back to.
Good bye unhealthy me....may we never meet again!!!
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Day 2: I have been so horrible to my body these last few months, and I am now living with the aftermath of my terrible choices. Part of it was stress eating, part of it was the holidays (which adds to the stress eating) Part of it was spreading myself out in too many directions. And a lot of it was just not caring anymore. But whatever it was, those are just all excuses that Ive used and its time to stop. This is not the me that I want to be. This is not the body I want to live in. I know it can be so much better...I've seen it! I know that I can feel so much better, both physically and emotionally. When I was at my lowest weight and the best physical shape of my life I felt like I was living on top of the world! I loved feeling that way because I never knew it was possible. But now I do, so there is no reason that I cant get there again. Im the only one stopping me....
Ive struggled over the last year as I slowly let myself go. I stopped running and exercising. I stopped making good food choices. I told myself a little bit wouldn't hurt, but then a little bit became a lot. And the more weight I put back on, the harder it became to have the energy to exercise. And the less I exercised the more I ate. Going out for lunch became a regular weekly (even bi-weekly) habit as well as candy bars or ice cream while being a couch potato in the evenings. My life had become so stressful that I was comforting myself with food and laziness.
That all ends now!! Yesterday I started a 14 day cleanse. Its not the crazy no food, nasty drink concoctions cleanse that most people think of though. I am eating real food. Real healthy food. Real healthy and satisfying food! I was a little nervous about it going in. I am addicted to sugar and sweets. I love comfort food. These foods are none of those. But these foods are foods that my body needs. I don't need a snickers bar, or chocolates, but I do need foods that will nourish my body, not bog it down. In just one day, I can already feel the difference. Its amazing. and it gives me hope for the next 13 days...and beyond!
I am really going to do this! This time is for real...and FOREVER! I never want to go back down this road, where I am watching myself slowly turn back into the person that I do not like. Being that person affects me in so many more ways than just my weight. It effects my relationships with my family and others. If I cant love myself, how can I let others love me?
And its not that I have to be "skinny" to be loved, but I need to feel healthy and confident about myself. That is who I want to be. And this is the first step! I am looking forward to this journey and where it will take me!
I took the following pictures of myself today...gag!! But, I need to be reminded where I started, and where I do not want to be or ever go back to.
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